selamat tinggal malaysia..

yay!
hari yg ku tunggu telah tiba..
esk tanggal 28 Mei 2009..
aku akan meninggalkan Malaysia dan menuju ke Jakarta..
bercuti bersama keluarga...haha!
hadiah "graduation" katanya!
hehehe....JAKARTA! HERE I COME!!!

Betapa Aku Cinta Padamu

Afgan's song! so sweet! and i simply luv it!

to my **mr. right** (where ever u are...this song is for u! ~^__^~)

Dihati Ini
Hanya Dirimu
Yang Aku Sayang, Yang Aku Rindu
Setiap Saat
Setiap Waktu
Kuingin Engkau Slalu Ada Disisiku

Izinkan Aku Kecup Keningmu
Izinkan Aku Peluk Dirimu
Izinkan Aku Hadir Didalam Mimpimu
Betapa Aku Cinta Padamu
Betapa Aku Aku Ingin Dirimu
Yang Kan Menjadi Bagian Dari Hidupku, Oh..Kasih...

Papaprappp..Uu..Aa.....

Dihati Ini
Hanya Dirimu
Yang Aku Sayang, Yang Aku Rindu
Setiap Saat
Setiap Waktu
Kuingin Engkau Slalu Ada Disisiku

Izinkan Aku Kecup Keningmu
Izinkan Aku Peluk Dirimu
Izinkan Aku Hadir Didalam Mimpimu
Betapa Aku Cinta Padamu
Betapa Aku Ingin Dirimu
Yang Kan Menjadi Bagian Dari Hidupku, Oh..Kasih...

Cikgu-cikgu ku! (Part II)

Kat skolah rendah, aji masih nakal, tomboy..haha! Cikgu aji, aji igt lg, home class teacher aji masa darjah 1 is cikgu fairuz. Dia pun ala2 lelaki. Ganas. Hahaha…so aji ngam ngan dia. Tp tak byk kenangan sgt. Kenangan paling aji tak bole lupe was masa aji darjah 4 dan 5. masa tu home class teacher aji was Cikgu Addnan. Darjah 4 and 5 dia yang pegang. Haha..jgn salah sangka, dia bukan ayah aji walaupun name dia same. Dia org lain..single lagi masa tu. And dia was cikgu yang paling rapat ngan aji. Sbb dia unofficially nya anggap aji as anak dia..siap ngaku kat mak aji masa report card day yang dia anggap aji anak dia sbb kebetulan nama dia Addnan. Haha..tak malu betul! Cikgu Addnan aja aji math. Aji mmg terus terang ckp aji mmg tak suka math! Seriously! Tp sbb dia ajar..aji jd minat ngan math! Dia creative. Mcm2 cara dia aja kitaorg utk syg math..haha! and thanks to him, math aji masa tuh mmg bertambah baik. Haha..aji igt lagi, dia penah ckp yang “math is fun”. Haha…ye lah! FUN! Haha..dia ngan aji mmg ngam. Infact satu skolah igt dia bebetul ayah aji! Cikgu2 seme tau aji anak cikgu Addnan. Haha…bengong kan! Kebetulan aji pun layan jek! Dh org anggap mcm ank kan..so apa lg! haha…aji rapat ngan dia. And yes aji syg dia. Dialah satu2 nya cikgu yang aji still igt. Paling tak tahan, masa report card day darjah 5, dia bgtau kat mak aji yang aji ni anak dia and slalu main2 dlm cls. Nakal dan suka buli org. haha…nk buat cmne kan..aji mmg cmtu! Hehe…pastu dia ckp kat mak aji lg yg aji ni hyperactive and tak reti duk diam sbb aji takkan duduk kat tempat duduk aji dediam…sure akan berjalan punye! Kaco org. hahaha…yes…thts true indeed. Pastu yang best nye..mak aji ni leh lak geng ngan Cikgu Addnan ni. Pastu dia report yang aji suke baca comic. Aisshh…pecah rahsia! Haha..and I still remember until dis day dia ckp “Oh..anak ayah suka baca komik ye” sambil cubit pipi aji! Cheh! Huhu…in front of my mum! Hampeh! Tp..dia mmg best! Ada one time ni…dia anta aji balik umah sbb time tu kaki aji cedera teruk sbb kene balun ngan kayu hockey masa tournament. Dia siap marah2 aji mcm aji ni anak dia. Tak sangka…ada gak cikgu cmni! Lepas tournament tu, aji mmg tak leh join mane2 hockey tournament sbb dia slalu report kat mak/ayah aji! Aji benci sgt dia time tu. Sbb hockey was my passion! Tp at last aji paham! Thanks Cikgu! Aji tak benci Cikgu lagi! Infact aji dh berdamai ngan cikgu kan…masa aji sambut birthday cikgu. Haha…penat wo kumpul duit nk beli kek yang kecik tu. Tp best sbb cikgu nanges pastu. Hehehe…tp, masa aji darjah 6, cikgu pindah. Sedih sgt!! Sbb aji betul2 syg cikgu mcm ayah aji. Pastu tak lama lepas cikgu pindah, cikgu anta kad kawen cikgu kat umah. Aji happy sgt2! Tp aji mtk maaf sbb aji tak dpt dtg kenduri kawen cikgu. Maaf sgt2!! Huhu…sbb cikgu wat kenduri time tu malam! Ayah aji takde…dia outstation. So aji nak pegi ngan sape…huhu..Maaf Cikgu Addnan!!!! Lepas cikgu kawen, terus takde kabar brita. Ye lah…kan! Aji paham! Tak sangka masa aji tingkatan 1 aji jmpe cikgu kat bazaar ramadhan kat Greenwood. Cikgu sorang2. tak sangka Cikgu kenal aji lg. masa tu kat kdai air tebu…cikgu tanye aji.. “Awk ni azura adnan kan…” pastu aji ckp ye.. “Anak ayah!” Cikgu ckp…masa tu aji tak tau lah nk describe cmne…tak sangke cikgu masih anggap aji as anak cikgu. Cikgu crita kan aji yang wife cikgu baru lepas bersalin..anak prempuan..and nama dia “Azura”. Memula, aji tak percaya sbb igt cikgu tipu. Tapi rerupenye betul! Haha…tak sangka kan! Aji tanye knape cikgu pilih nama azura, pastu cikgu ckp yang cikgu amek nama tu sempena nama aji sbb aji anak cikgu! Huhu….terharu! akhirnya..cikgu bebetul ada anak nama Azura Addnan. Sama mcm aji…cume aji nye nama Azura Adnan with 1 D. hmm…pastu kita tak penah jumpa kan cikgu. Dgr cite cikgu pindah. Tp ntah la…aji pun dh pindah umah. So kita lost contact cm tu jek.

Cikgu-cikgu ku!

Rasenya belum terlambat lagi aji nk ucapkan selamat hari guru kepada semua guru2 si seantero dunia. Guru memang memainkan peranan yg besar dpt hidup setiap manusia sbb mereka ni lah yang tanpa jemu dan penat mengajar kita semua apa itu ilmu! Tanpa guru2 ni..tak mungkin kita jd seperti sekarang.

Well tak salah rasanya if aji nk crita pasal cikgu2 yang memainkan peranan yang amat besar dlm hidup aji! Bermula dari tadika lagi aji amat berterima kasih kepada arwah cikgu Zainon yang tanpa jemu ajar aji setiap huruf ABC spailah ke Z dari no 1 hingga lah ke no 10 dan macam2 lagi. Dialah insan yang mula-mula mengajar aji apa erti ilmu tu seme! Aji rase, tanpa dia..tak mungkin aji mampu membaca dan mengenal setiap huruf. Ya, mungkin ada yang tak bersetuju…sbb dorg akan ckp parents ada utk mengajar kita seme..yes, thts true! But as for me..dulu, parents aji sibuk cari rezeki..so tak dpt bagi masa sgt2 kat aji utk ajar aji semua bende..so cikgu tadika itu lah yang ajar aji semuanya. Dia lah yang tanam sifat mahu belajar dlam hati aji ni. Dia lah yang tanpa penat kejar aji kat tadika tu, suruh aji blaja. Dulu aji nakal. Sgt2 nakal. Geng aji seme dak lelaki plus, g tadika pun dulu aji pkai uniform lelaki! Haha…tomboy, thts me! Nakal aji, mmg satu sekolah tau! Spaikan aji igt lagi yang cikgu aji penah ckp kat aji “Zura awk tak penat ke? Cikgu dh penat kejar awk. Cikgu sakit kaki..” masa tu..aji rasa bersalah sgt2 sbb aji cikgu enon sakit kaki. Tp biasa lah budak..insaf kejap je. Haha…last aji jmpe cikgu enon is beberapa bulan sebelum dia menghembuskan nafas yang terakhir. Masa tu aji darjah 6 kot. Dia cakap kat aji..yang aji ni lah anak murid dia yang paling nakal dia penah jumpa and paling dia sayang. Aji memula tak paham kenapa dia ckp mcm tu. Sbb mana da org syg budak nakal. Then, masa aji tingkatan 2, mak aji crite..yang cikgu enon tu anggap aji macam anak dia sbb dia takda anak prempuan. Sedih aji dgr crita tu. Aji nyesal sbb aji buat cikgu enon penat kejar aji. Aji buat dia sakit kaki. Aji buat dia sedih masa aji gaduh ngan dak lelaki. Aji buat dia marah masa dia dpt tau aji buli sorg budak ni ..dan mcm2 lagi. Cikgu Enon, aji mtk maaf byk2..dan trima kasih sbb jd cikgu aji. Aji beruntung dpt cikgu mcm cikgu enon! Ya Allah, tempatkan lah dia di kalangan mereka yang Kau kasihi dan ampunilah segala dosanya. Al-Fatihah.

so called "SAMSENG JALANAN"

mat rempit..satu nama yg sekarang perlu dikenali sebagai "samseng jalanan"! itu kata polis..well, for me...for what ever names they are call, they are wht they are! what we need now is a strict enforcement of law! dun talk bullshit..but rather pls improve the law! amend wht need to be amended! punish them accordingly! they deserve the worse punishment as they totally disregard life of other people! enough is enough! we dun want to hear more cases abt pregnant ladies died after being snatch! no more pls! law enforcement bodies..i know im shallow abt law...i know less abt it..but can u pls make sure that wht u about to legislate will definately punish those mat rempit/samseng jalanan according to the crime they commit! punish them as a lesson to those mat rempit/samseng jalanan yg kat luar tu..show them that the law is something that they cannot mess with! show them who is incharge! cus believe me...they are mocking our law because they didnt afraid of it! they think they are superior than the law! so pls, the enforcement bodies...show to them the u guys incharge of all this! show them that the law is superior! pls..pls..pls!

(imagine..anak2 yg kehilangan mak dorg sbb so called mat rempit/samseng jalanan! pada sapa anak2 ni nk kongsi kasih sayang! every person in the earth need their mother! so pls...no more! enuf is enuf..!! dun let these children loss their mother bcs of this!

Clearance for an idiot like me…**hehe**

Once your exam result is out, give the kuliyyah about a week or 2 weeks to change your status.

Go to myiium and make sure your status has been changed from ACTIVE to GRAD ('GR') at the mypersonal tab.

If it has been changed, then pick one working day and come back to UIA and go to ANR and get the form called “Release of Certificate”.

With your matric card, go to all 5 offices listed in the form and get their signatures and official seals to confirm that you do not owe these departments any money or that you do not have disciplinary proceedings pending.

(The arrangement of these offices are based on the most convenient place to go first in order to avoid any delay in your application because office like finance div may take some time, so I recommend you to go to the offices based on the listing below, BUT ITS UP TO YOU TO DECIDE)

(i) Finance Division

Most of the graduated student advised me to go to Finance first because here it may take a long time to process the financial statement. Once you’ve got the statement, if everything is ok, you may proceed to the next office but if you have some debts owed you have to go to Muamalat Bank first and pay the debt owed and then come back to finance with the bank slip and hand it over to the person who in charge with your application. Then, once settled, they will sign and stamp the form and you may proceed to the next office.


(ii) Legal Unit

Here, I advised you to dress according to the dress code. Seriously! (in order to avoid anything bad..hehe). Go to the counter and hand over the form and your matric card. In case you dressed not in accordance to the dress code, you may ask your friends who come with you to do it for you provided his/her attires is according to the dress code. Once stamped and signed, proceed to the next place.

(iii) Mahallah

I advise you to go to mahallah first because the staff in the mahallah sometime can be quite annoying and too slow! Sometime they close the mahallah office earlier then the time they should or sometime they went to lunch at 12.30 and open it back around 2.30…seriously!

(iv) Library

Go to the counter and handed over your form and matric card. They will check whether you have any fines in case you didn’t return the book you have borrowed or in case of late return of the book. If there’s fines, please pay! If not, once the stamped and signed…heads to the last Ofice!

(v) IIUM Security

Go down the wooden staircase to the Summons Office for clearance. Give your matric card and the form. The officer will check if there is any summons. Here, then they wil cancel your matric card by punching a hole at your matric card and you can keep the “matric card yg berlubang” as souvenir or kenang-kenangan.


MAKE SURE THE 5 OFFICES SIGN & STAMP ON BOTH PAGES (A&R Copy + Students' Copy)

After clearing at Security Office, DON'T HEAD HOME. Go back to ANR and return the forms back! They will stamp “RECEIVED” on both copies (Student and ANR Copy) and return to you the student copy. Please keep that student copy safe because you will need it in order to collect your release letter and transcript on the given date once it has been endorsed!


That’s it! CLEARANCE!!!! Have fun guys!

….for me, it was totally fun because its like THE AMAZING RACE where you need to run and go to the chosen pit stop and “complete your task in order to go to another pit stop” ..hehe! …I’ve settled this clearance thingy in 1 hour! Haha..damn proud of it!...(and yeah…it will be more fun if you go with friends because after all this, you can chill out and hang out like I did! Hahaha….

aji janji lah!

mak..
hepi mother's day...
ajie xde adiah nk bg...sbb aji takde duit lah..hehe
tp..aji hanya mampu bg mak adiah yg ni jek...
"aji janji aji kemas buku2 aji and arrange it in 1 place"

ok mak?
luv u...

PLS GO AWAY FROM MY LIFE! I DUNT NEED YOU!

argghh...i hate this feeling! i tot i can forget all the things done to me..but i couldnt! damn! when i remembered it back..it brings tears...i wonder why friends do this to me..argghhh!!! how can i erase this bad memories!!! i hate this!!!!!

i never felt this way..usually..i never care! but now...even i try to forget it..i CANT! im too hurt! the cuts are so deep...and it left me with hating u..I HATE YOU WHO HURT ME! i tot we are friends...bestfriend..but i was wrong!

ARGGGHHHH.....I HATE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

being EMOTIONAL!

the PAST?!

to hell with it!

my new mission now is...

FORGET THE PAST, LIVE THE FUTURE!

but it doesnt mean that i forgive and forget!

hell no!

you..you who have hurts me, stabbed me..

u lost my trust! and to gain it back is bloody hard!

i forgive you...but remember..i will not forget!

believe in karma dude...KARMA!!


so all the best with ur life! hope tht wht happen to me wont happen to u..and if it happen..then u shld know why!

CLUELESS

i know i just graduated from lawschool..but until now seriously im clueless..i dun know what to do...some of my friends have starts their working days and me..still in the state of UNKNOWN.. tho the resume has been distributed but somehow i feels like...will i get the job?! honestly speaking..i juz sent my resume to this one particular firm..i know im wrong..im suppose to vary my choice..but again..deep inside me..i feels like i dun want to cus i like the firm i chose!

seriously, life after studies is difficult as we hav to make our own path..where do we want to go..! i hate this stage of life..i hope i'll be working soon..tho people says working life is sucks..but still..i prefer working than do anything..cus i feels like life without purpose if not working! and now...i feel like one!

dear friends...please, pray for me..wish me luck and hope it all will be as i planned..

Dear Allah...i know you always there and i believe in u always..so i know..u're planning something good for me..and i thankful of that..syukran ya Allah...thank you ya Allah..


note to self: never give up! life is like a game...u hav to hav strategies to win your game! so..PLAY IT WELL..PLAY IT NICE!

did i juz saw mcdreamy?!

yesterday..i was in a hospital cus my granny had a surgery for her broken bones...so i waited for her from morning to the evening lah in the ward...while waiting...i saw this 1 particular guy...so charming, so dashing...so.....**speechless** (..hehe..) then he walked towards me...and suddenly says "hello...u miss azura?" and i was...so in the cloud nine when he know and say my name..haha! and i replied "yes, i am"...then he said.."ok..nenek miss azura sudah keluar dari operation theater but dia masih belum sedarkan diri bcs of the injection...but dun worry...she's fine now.."....and i then said.."trima kasih doctor..." and he smiled and says .."ur welkam miss azura...dun worry..if anything juz call the nurse ok.."...hahahahahahaha....deym! he's HOT! haha...with his smile and his dimple...his soft look..his eyes...argghhh.....!!! i cant forget his look!

i think i juz met with mcdreamy in SELAYANG HOSPITAL! seriously...i never tot tht govt hospital has such a hotshot doctor..ahahahah...man how i wish i will meet him again...! haha...suddenly i feels like i'm the luckiest girl when he say my name in such a nice way...hehe...

dear hotshot doctor...i "HEART" u..hehehehe....


deym! u're such an unforgettable and charming doctor!...

i need to do something with my life...

need a new strategy for this new phase of life...

need to distribute the resume...but again..AM I IN A DENIAL?!

deym!!...