Letting go...

its have been such a long time since i've left this blog...
it started with my final exam...then holiday...makes me ignoring this blog..
its intentional because..actually i dont have anything to write..

but now..i think i do have something to write..i guess..

i've been watching grey's anatomy from season 1 to season 5 (currently)..and some of taiwan and korean drama series...

these sort of entertainment i've watched..makes me learns something..
something tht have always been in my mind...but i dont know how to start and how to do..

now..thanks to these series...i know what should i do...

frankly speaking..i've been admiring this one guy i named "A" for years..and still dont have the guts to tell him that i like him..

its hurt not to be able to confess your feeling..
i admit...my fear is...REJECTION!
i could not face such rejection..
so i kept silent..
held my feeling deep inside my heart..
far away from the world..far from those who know me..

i know...im selfish...but..the rejection is something that i could not bare!

so..these drama series teaches me that i should not be afraid of rejection..
just let it out..the feeling..tell him tht u love him...etc..

so...i did that...
i told him that i like him...for years..
i confessed my feeling for him..I DID IT! I DID IT...
he did not reject me nor accept me..

but now..i felt that, there's nothing special about it..
i felt like...i should move on...move on with my life..and forget about him...

in Grey's Anatomy...
it teaches me that we should move on with our life...
leave the past..and move forward..never look back..

so...i've been thinking for days..
i think i should move on...
leave the past...leave everything tht non beneficial to me..

so...as for my FIRST step now...
im totally determined and cleared that...i'm letting him go...
im letting him go...away from my heart...away from my mind..away from my world...

"A"...its time for me to move on..
im letting you go...
its over..
thanks for always makes my days brighten whenever i see you..
thanks for helping me...
thanks for everything..
u're something that is so wonderful that have happen to me..
but..im letting you go...
i wishes for your happiness and i pray that you meet someone that you cherish for...
i pray that u'll find your other half..
tht is so perfect for you...
and i pray that...its ends with happily ever after...

your happiness is my hapiness...

i'm letting you go because...i believe that..if you love someone you should let him go...
if he truly loves you...he'll come back to you..
but if he dont..just wish him his happiness...

so...i love u so much that i have to let u go..
im letting you go...
and from a far..i wishes u happiness...

im move on with my life..
your place that always be in my heart are no longer there..
i makes it empty..for me to have a chance to meet someone..

im letting you go...for me to have a chance to meet and to know someone whom maybe i have neglected...for whom that maybe i never realise his existence...

im letting you go...
im letting you go...
im letting you go...

if u and i are meant to be together...
then maybe one day...we will reunite again...
and maybe when we reunite..it will be forever...

thanks for everything...