Friday, December 19, 2008

My Confession...



I received an email from my dear friend which he attached together with the song from AFGAN, an Indonesian artist..the song entitled "My Confession".

for the first time I heard the song..I fall in luv with this singer. the lyric are so meaningful...and his voice are just superb..with kinnda rnb singer, it sound perfect with the song.

and I must say this "My Confession" is my favourite...so here the lyric goes...

"My Confession"

Your smile brings light into my days
The tought of you, warms my night
To hold you in my arms,
Even in my dreams it feels so right
Loving you...

You never see the way I look into your
Eyes
You never realize the love I feel
Inside
Pain and sorrow that haunted me,
Cause words I've left unsaid

Now you found someone else to love
Deep in my heart, my love won't fade away
To hold you in my arms
Even in my dreams it feels so right loving you

You never see the way I look into your
Eyes
You never realize the love I feel
Inside
Pain and sorrow that haunted me,
Cause words I've left unsaid

You never see the way I look into your
Eyes
You never realize the love I feel
Inside
Pain and sorrow that haunted me,
Cause words I've left unsaid to you...



p/s: to my dear friend..thanks for the song..and thanks for the motivations that u gave me...

I can't stop smiling after watching "Rab Ne Bana Di Jodi"



Last Wednesday, I went for a movie with my dear friend. We decided to watch Hindi movie since both of us are big fans of “Datuk” Shahrukh Khan. So we watched “Rab Ne Bana Di Jodi” meaning “A Couple made by God”.

The movie is about Surinder "Suri" Sahni (Shahrukh Khan) is an introvert, responsible and sincere cubicle worker for Punjab Power. Tania "Taani" Gupta (Anushka Sharma) is an extrovert, flamboyant and vivacious, set to get married to the guy she loves. When her fiancee is killed in a bus accident on their wedding day, and her professor father suffers a massive heart attack as a result, Taani's father asks Taani and the visiting Surinder, his longtime favorite student, to marry so that Taani will not be alone after he is gone. The couple agrees, and Taani finds herself in a routine and loveless marriage in Amritsar. Unbeknownst to her, however, Suri had fallen in love with her at first sight, though he remains too shy to tell her.

To escape her mundane marital life, Taani, with Suri's blessing, begins participating in a dance class and competition with the reality television show Dancing Jodi. Surinder, with the help of his childhood friend Balwinder "Bobby" Khosla (Vinay Pathak), a hair-saloon owner, and metamorphoses into an alter ego he calls Raj. Raj is a loud, rude, outspoken and fun-loving person. He joins the dance class and by chance — or, as he believes, by divine intervention — becomes Taani's partner in the competition.

Taani, unable to recognize that Raj is Surinder (sans mustaches and glasses, and with a different hairstyle, clothing and demeanor), eventually starts to feel that Raj's personality and nature are more in tune with hers. Despite Raj's initial crudeness — a result of Surinder's inexperience with women and his trying to emulate "cool" images from the movies — the two become friends. After Raj eventually declares his love for her, a torn Taani resists but finally capitulates. Raj offers to elope. On the day of the competition, Taani believes she sees a sign from God telling her that Surinder is the one for her. That night, before the competition, she tells Raj she wants to stay with her husband. When the time comes for the couple to dance on stage, Raj is nowhere to be found — but Surinder appears instead. During the dance, Taani realizes that Raj was Surinder all along. She announces to the crowd at the end of their routine that they are Mr. and Mrs. Surinder Sahni, and they honeymoon in Japan, to which Surinder, in a brief subplot, had won roundtrip airplane tickets.

The synopsis was taken from http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rab_Ne_Bana_Di_Jodi

This movie has such a great songs and the songs are so sweet. My favourite song I must say is the “Haule Haule” (if im not mistaken and sorry if the spelling is not correct). I can’t stop from humming the melody of this song.

After watching the movie, I cannot stop smiling. It was such a sweet and romantic movie. At one moment, I realized that we should not find someone who is so perfect or a prince charming to fall in love but a plain and ordinary man can makes you feel happy and can makes you fall in love too.

Until now I can’t stop smiling whenever I remember the movie. For me, this movie gives me a whole new perspective about the meaning of love.

Beauty is in the Eye of the Beholder



She was not beautiful.
Nothing about her was extraordinary.
Nothing about her made her stand out in a crowd.

She grew up in a family of six.
The eldest, she learnt responsibility at an early age.
As she grew stronger, and brighter,
She instilled a sort of light cheer to whomever she met.

She was not beautiful.
But she made others feel beautiful about themselves.
She meets a rebel boy who thinks he's all man.
Befriending him, she teaches him how to read,
A little boost the man needed to go to college.

They became friends fast and she fell,
Fast in love with her rugged, handsome student.
The "man" then finds himself in a dilemma
He soon found himself in love with a girl.
A girl so beautiful, she turned even the grouchiest men's head.
Her hair was a halo of light around her,
Her eyes the bluest blue of ocean.

Like an angel he tells his tutor
Like a beautiful angel.
The girl swallows a lump at her throat

She was not beautiful
She did not possess the heart of the one she loved
But she did not care.
As long as he was happy,
She would be or so she tried to.

She helped him write the most beautiful letter to his angel
All the time envisioning that it was she herself
Receiving those very letters.
And so the girl helped him choose the right words,
Buy the right gifts for his angel
His angel brought him much joy
And much pain to the girl who cried behind her smiles.
But that never stopped her from giving more
Than she will ever receive.

Then one day, all hell broke loose
The angel he loved left him for another man,
A richer, more successful man.
The boy was stunned
He was so hurt he did not speak for days
The girl went to him
He cried on her shoulder and she cried with him
He hurt and so did she.

Time went by.
And so the wounds heal.
The boy realizes something about his friend/tutor
He never realized before.
How her laughter sounded heavenly
Or how her smiles brightened up the darkest days.
Or simply how beautiful, yes beautiful she looked to him!

Beautiful.
This plain, simple girl was beautiful to him.
And he began to fall.
Fall so in love with this beautiful girl.

On one day, he picked up all his courage to see her.
He walked to her house, nervous ad fidgeting.
Running his thoughts over and over in his head.
He was going to tell her how beautiful she was to him.
He was going to tell her how wonderfully in love he was with her.
He knocked.
No one was home.

The next day he found out,
The beautiful girl he fell in love with had brain aneurysm
That put her into a coma.
The doctors were grim and the family decided to let her go.

One final time he got to see her.
He held her hand.
He stroked her hair,
And he cried for this beautiful girl.
He cried for he will never see her smile
Or hear her speak his name

He cried.
But it was too late.

The beautiful girl was buried and the heavens broke out
In a beautiful spring shower, a cry for their loss.
She was the most beautiful girl in the world.

Look around you.
Aren't there a lot of plain faces?
Take a good look
A real good look or you might miss out
On that beautiful person.

Forever....

P/s: do appreciate 4 what u have rite now...coz u'll never know what next precious things u r about 2 lose until u do..

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

CICAKMAN 2 : PLANET HITAM



hmm..i've watched the movie with my nephew and niece..ok lah the movie..but i expect more..for me the first cicakman is much more better than this planet hitam.

the stunt..and cgi effect...terlalu obvious..and sometimes it looks like cartoon...

the bike scene...hmm..from cgi effect..looks like so dem laju..but at some angle..nmpk sgt bike tuh perlahan jek..hmm...

and prof klon..ades...its only entertaining mse dh nk abes movie...the scene in the cave..others...kureng skt..huhu..

and one more thing...i dunt get how ginger 1 and ginger 2 finally knows that prof klon planned their murder..or did i miss it during the movie?

another thing...iman..mase dlm latex nyer kolam tuh...ade certain angle nmpak dh tenggelam terus...but later..nmpak kepala tak tenggelam...huhu...

however..my niece and nephew enjoyed it...so did i..

WELL DONE TO YUSRI KRU...

p/s: i expect more from CICAKMAN...and hopefully next CICAKMAN will be better than Planet Hitam..and personally..i like CICAKMAN 1 than CICAKMAN 2...

Saturday, December 13, 2008

Meet Danial, Dini and the Twin…

In my life now...i have 4 people whom I love so much and I always miss them. They are my sister and brother’s kids.

My big sister Aniza, have 2 kids…named Danial Harith and Dini Nabila. These 2 kids are so hyperactive. They always keep on playing until midnight. Sometimes, I have to baby-sit them and it is sometimes so tiresome...cuz I have to stay late night to accompany them to watch cartoon and playing with them...haha...but its enjoyable as I can tease them and they response to it in a very funny ways..hehe..

I can say that Danial have interest in aeroplane…especially military plane which is MIG. He has so many collections of MIG planes…and he knows every model..which I don’t know..haha..


Meanwhile, as for Dini..she likes Barbie doll a lot. Infact she have a collection of it..up to the recent one..the musical princess if I’m not mistaken.

But both of them have the same “perangai”..which is “cepat merajuk”. When they are merajuk..oh my god…their voices are so loud..and so stubborn. Haha…just like their mother which is my sister. Nonetheless…both Danial and Dini…are brilliant kids and fast learners..

Meanwhile…our new jewels in family are my brother’s kids. My brother, Khairul Nizam has a twin babies..named Nur Qistina Alisya and Nur Qistina Batrisya.

The twins are so cute and I love them too. I like to babysit them…as they are so funny and adorable. Alisya…she likes to laugh..whenever you tease her..she will laugh and I’m sure that you’ll laugh too with her…just like me..

While Batrisya..she likes to play…she the naughty one for me…not naughty naughty…

but good naughty… I mean…she likes to kick Alisya, pull of the hair…squeezing the cheek..etc…haha..but not in a harsh way lah… don’t worry..

Its cute to see both of them…and i always miss the twin…my family too…my mum..my sisters…my cousins.. So, its good that my brother comes to our homes every weekend..hehe…its means that I got to see the twins every weekend..ok lah…

So…Danial, Dini, Alisya and Batrisya…are the jewels in our family...we love them very much…and I do too…

Friday, December 12, 2008

Letting go...


its have been such a long time since i've left this blog...
it started with my final exam...then holiday...makes me ignoring this blog..
its intentional because..actually i dont have anything to write..

but now..i think i do have something to write..i guess..

i've been watching grey's anatomy from season 1 to season 5 (currently)..and some of taiwan and korean drama series...

these sort of entertainment i've watched..makes me learns something..
something tht have always been in my mind...but i dont know how to start and how to do..

now..thanks to these series...i know what should i do...

frankly speaking..i've been admiring this one guy i named "A" for years..and still dont have the guts to tell him that i like him..

its hurt not to be able to confess your feeling..
i admit...my fear is...REJECTION!
i could not face such rejection..
so i kept silent..
held my feeling deep inside my heart..
far away from the world..far from those who know me..

i know...im selfish...but..the rejection is something that i could not bare!

so..these drama series teaches me that i should not be afraid of rejection..
just let it out..the feeling..tell him tht u love him...etc..

so...i did that...
i told him that i like him...for years..
i confessed my feeling for him..I DID IT! I DID IT...
he did not reject me nor accept me..

but now..i felt that, there's nothing special about it..
i felt like...i should move on...move on with my life..and forget about him...

in Grey's Anatomy...
it teaches me that we should move on with our life...
leave the past..and move forward..never look back..

so...i've been thinking for days..
i think i should move on...
leave the past...leave everything tht non beneficial to me..

so...as for my FIRST step now...
im totally determined and cleared that...i'm letting him go...
im letting him go...away from my heart...away from my mind..away from my world...

"A"...its time for me to move on..
im letting you go...
its over..
thanks for always makes my days brighten whenever i see you..
thanks for helping me...
thanks for everything..
u're something that is so wonderful that have happen to me..
but..im letting you go...
i wishes for your happiness and i pray that you meet someone that you cherish for...
i pray that u'll find your other half..
tht is so perfect for you...
and i pray that...its ends with happily ever after...

your happiness is my hapiness...

i'm letting you go because...i believe that..if you love someone you should let him go...
if he truly loves you...he'll come back to you..
but if he dont..just wish him his happiness...

so...i love u so much that i have to let u go..
im letting you go...
and from a far..i wishes u happiness...

im move on with my life..
your place that always be in my heart are no longer there..
i makes it empty..for me to have a chance to meet someone..

im letting you go...for me to have a chance to meet and to know someone whom maybe i have neglected...for whom that maybe i never realise his existence...

im letting you go...
im letting you go...
im letting you go...

if u and i are meant to be together...
then maybe one day...we will reunite again...
and maybe when we reunite..it will be forever...

thanks for everything...

Monday, November 3, 2008

kepada Mu ku memohon..


" YA ALLAH...jika aku jatuh cinta, cinta kan lah aku pada seseorang yang melabuhkan cintanya padaMU, agar bertambah kekuatanku utk menyintaiMU, izinkanlah aku menyentuh hati seseorang yang hati nya tertaut padaMU, agar tidak terjatuh aku dalam jurang cinta nafsu...."

Thursday, October 30, 2008

the day that we went partyin...

right after EAP paper today, which was ended on 6 pm...emmy gave an idea that we all should have our dinner outside...somewhere far from IIUM compound! haha...

thus, we went to memory corner, which not so far from IIUM actually...



the foods was way too cool! and best! i ordered mee curry and pergghh....best!





emmy ordered ns sweet sour i guess...and it was good!


leini ordered the tomyam...and u know wht...it was totally NICE! i should ordered tomyam instead..haha...but i like my curry mee...NICE!!

the place, damn nice! all the cartoon as the backdrop...with garden concept..whoa! this place will be my fav spot!

we chillin and takin some pics...and then we go back to IIUM...hmm..whut a life! have another paper tomorrow..at 2.30pm...gosh! i have not studies yet! darn u jiji! haha...











STUDY JIJI...STUDY!! kwn2...mari kite study gak! haha...
at last....arrived at nusaibah...damn! hav to bace buku balik....!! =P

Monday, October 27, 2008

Peperangan...Exams...LUCK!



27/10/08 - Jurisprudence..yerp! on deepavali day! i tot i cud go for deeparaya...but cannot!
29/10/08 - Civil Procedure...yikess!! huhu...
30/10/08 - Public International Law...wuuhhuuu...banyaknyer!!
7/11/08 - PP...ades..byknyer loopholes kat notes..iskk!! sir baha...hav mercy k?! huhu..
10/11/08 - Evidence..waduh! gamaknyer time nk paper neh sure aku cm separuh waras..
11/11/08 - CPC...wushhh...ARGGHHHH!!!...ST, plz hav mercy on me! huhu...
14/11/08 - Submit PP assignment - Opinion writing...ades! nk cuti pun ade assignment!

15/11/08 - 21/12/08 ----> HOLIDAY! YEAY!!!!


k, kwn2....ALL D BEST N B D BEST!...LUCCCKKKKKKK!!!!!

MALAS MELANDA DIRI KU


ades...

cmner neh...aku malas lagi!
byk keje bende yg distract aku if aku nk study...
cm skang neh...c-buk ngan blog neh plak! iskk..

kene study neh...
tp...cmner..tgn and mate tak nk lepas dr laptop neh..
ades..tolong!

mak...
kan best if mak ade kat campus neh...
leh marah2 ji!
suh study...

isk...better starts study!
tak leh merepek lg!

those yg bce blog neh...thanx!
almaklumlah...sy org baru...
tetibe dtg seru nk join jd blogger.
hehe...

hmm...k lah! enuff...

those out there yg same cm sy tgh c-buk xm neh...I WISH U GOOD LUCK AND ALL THE BEST!!

Sunday, October 26, 2008

I "HEART" YOU...

It’s hard when u like someone for such a long time and u don’t have the guts to tell that person that u like or love him/her.

Well, this is what happening to me!

I like someone since I was in college. It was some sort like love at first sight. From the very moments I saw that person, I was attracted to that person (whom I named as “A”). A was one of my classmate in college. He’s kind of a quite student in the class but with a brilliant brain. He often gets high marks for tests or quizzes and that makes me even more into him. A guy with a brain! Ha-ha…

Then I started to sms-ing him. I’ve got his number from himself. We changed our phone number with one another. And since then I never stop from messaging him but it was not often but only a few when it is needed.

After a few years, he left the college and pursues his studies in a higher institution and I was felt left behind. I couldn’t see the face that always brightens up my days that encourage me to study hard and achieve my goal. I was so sad. However, I still contact him. We contacted with each other through email or phone messaging services.

One of his messages which never erased in my heart and mind was when he said that we will be in the same faculty and instead will attach to the same orientation week. I was as high…as high as in cloud nine. His words make me even keener to study and finished up my workload. I don’t want to leave the opportunity to meet him and be with him. No I don’t want to!

So here I am now…at the same university as his. Taking the very same courses but just a few different especially in his major’s and mine. Even though it was 2 branches of studies, but so much so, it is related to one another. After being almost 6 years having crushed on him... I would says that yes I do like him sincerely. The reasons? Well I don’t have reasons for that. And don’t ask me why.

My friends’ keeps on telling me that I should tell him about what I feel, but I don’t have the gut to say it out loud. I preferably wanted to keep it in my heart and let only I know the truth, but my friends never understands it. Instead, they force me to confess to him but I don’t!

The reasons why I don’t want to confess is that, I don’t want to be hurt by what will happen if I told him about this. It’s hard to accept the rejection and even more it is hard for me then. If he rejects it, I would be embarrassed throughout of my studies years or I would lost him forever by ways which he will keep distance from me and that may cause me to lose a dearly friend. No I don’t want to take that risk.

So to play safe, I would rather be like this instead of confessing to him that I like him because I couldn’t bear the circumstances after the confession takes place. Either it would be a positive response or simply a negative response. Whose know rite, but still I don’t want to takes that risk! Let me be what I wanted it to be. Like Shakespeare said on one of his play, “To be or not to be”.

“A” I like and fall into you since I first saw your face. Thanks for making my days here very enjoyable and appreciated. Though we’re not that close, but your presence was enough for me. I wouldn’t demand anything high from someone who will never be mine I guess…so, instead of mumbling this all day long, I would rather to say that I do like someone and him fascinating me in so many ways.

From you, I learn how to learn and have the vision of my life.